After so long, Ive created my blog lol. Guess its just a place for me to voice out my feeling when i feel like. Hope nobody finds out about this, or rather, for people who i wan them to know only. Exams are coming, and theres so little time left. Guess I won't be scoring quite well looking at the results i get from my quiz.
Finally we get to really msg each other ytd. I can feel the wall between us but i guess thats normal. Guess she doesnt want me to hold any chance after what had happened. She did not really update me with her life but still, I told her abit about mine. She din really change much in terms of replying late and forget to reply, which sometimes make me amused how i get used to all these. I din expect anything in return for treating her well or maybe not in short term. I just couldnt forget the time we used to msg each other and sometimes go out tgt, maybe its only im the one who is happy about it at that time. Anyway its been like near 1 year, kind of numb with it, though the feelings came back whenever i see her. Sometimes i said things which makes myself seem desperate, but when things really happen, I wont be so desperate to try for the sake of trying. If i know shes the one, I will really go for it, and so far, theres only 2 of them. Even if it takes years, I don mind the effort. I know i changed alot since JC in terms of thinking and stuffs. Last time i used to think that im not good enough, till now, I think im able to hold a candle with others. Nvm should stop here. If she ever sees this, which i think its highly impossible, "I know u have tried, but sparks is not everything".
Btw, integration and physics are owning! AHHH! Oh ya, education qualification really makes a big difference in people's perspective of you. Im glad im able to get into a decent university. And, even if its private university or wad, its always a ++ point for girls and guys, showing they are able to think for the better for themselves. What a long post!
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