People will eventually accept things that they have been exposed to long enough. whether they like it or not. And reality is, no matter how seemingly impossible some things might be, the braver you are to face it, the more you will accept it. Not with a pinch of salt definitely but you will, hook or crook
Read it somewhere.. Its quite true. In physics term, maybe its call darwin's revolution.
Sunday, March 6, 2011
Friday, March 4, 2011
After so Long..
So long since I've last blogged. Life been really busy with school work. I don't even have time to think of what to do for the next week or next next week. I just want to survive the week. I'm afraid I can't maintain my GPA 4 as i think i had overloaded my modules. If i manage to survive this semester, then I don't think i will have any problems in the future.
Went out with her alone for the first time after 1 year.. The feeling was still alright. I'm no longer so nervous or excited. I guess I'm being passive now and all i can do is wait. Not that i dont like her anymore, just that.. I no longer feel that I'm filled with hopes. Continue to be passive and wait for her is the only thing i can do now and till i find another girl that's worth my wait.. After the date, it gets me thinking a lot.. thinking should i proceed further or just wait. but if waiting, how long do i have to wait? i cant be waiting forever and do nothing abt it. shes not going to say shes going to accept me if thats going to happen. What if she go out with me as a friend and i put her in a bad position again.. I dont want to put her in a bad position again because i have to be an understanding guy, if not this relationship will be never ending.. These trend of thoughts bother me for days and i know my inner self is scared.. scared of being rejected again and scared that everything will roll back to the vicious cycle.. My mind only had this answer.. that is if im gonna ask her again.. that will surely be the last time because after one year, shes still single. If up till now, she rather be single for one year and dont consider me.. i guess what i do wont matter anymore.. Gave her an organiser, but i don think she likes it. She never even mention abt the things that i've drawn there. Also, i think i cut the photos badly.. my writings are ugly.. but what to do.. im never good at art.. wanted to gave her a pot of rose to grow but brandon gave her a living thing. so i don think she will wan to take care of another plant. haha..
I'm such a wimp.. I don have the courage to talk about our relationship when i meet her.. maybe its because its our 1st date after so long.. but still.. i know it myself... Everything will start after my exam i think, if she is willing to go out with me again.. valentino..
Went out with her alone for the first time after 1 year.. The feeling was still alright. I'm no longer so nervous or excited. I guess I'm being passive now and all i can do is wait. Not that i dont like her anymore, just that.. I no longer feel that I'm filled with hopes. Continue to be passive and wait for her is the only thing i can do now and till i find another girl that's worth my wait.. After the date, it gets me thinking a lot.. thinking should i proceed further or just wait. but if waiting, how long do i have to wait? i cant be waiting forever and do nothing abt it. shes not going to say shes going to accept me if thats going to happen. What if she go out with me as a friend and i put her in a bad position again.. I dont want to put her in a bad position again because i have to be an understanding guy, if not this relationship will be never ending.. These trend of thoughts bother me for days and i know my inner self is scared.. scared of being rejected again and scared that everything will roll back to the vicious cycle.. My mind only had this answer.. that is if im gonna ask her again.. that will surely be the last time because after one year, shes still single. If up till now, she rather be single for one year and dont consider me.. i guess what i do wont matter anymore.. Gave her an organiser, but i don think she likes it. She never even mention abt the things that i've drawn there. Also, i think i cut the photos badly.. my writings are ugly.. but what to do.. im never good at art.. wanted to gave her a pot of rose to grow but brandon gave her a living thing. so i don think she will wan to take care of another plant. haha..
I'm such a wimp.. I don have the courage to talk about our relationship when i meet her.. maybe its because its our 1st date after so long.. but still.. i know it myself... Everything will start after my exam i think, if she is willing to go out with me again.. valentino..
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